I am Struggling Obese Australian, there isn't a doubt in the world about that, Currently I'm 33 years of age and trapped within a life and body for which is killing me. I weight in at around the 200kgs mark.
Every day i live with this constant struggle, a mixture of many things least of all that i am horrified and scared that at any moment i could died.
My body hurting, my life is hurting, I wont and will never shy away from the fact that i am responsible for my health, yet i feel i don't have a lot left in my life right now.
I have seen programs like Sixty Minutes a few weeks back about Lap Banding and the affect and change it is having on people lives, sadly I don't have the money to have an operation like this.
I have also watched the programs like the Biggest Loser and thought what have a done today to make me feel proud. I actually applied for the biggest loser, yet was unsuccessful. I know there isn't some magic bullet out there that will suddenly make me skinnier over night.
Where do i turn ?? , where can i get help to save myself ??, I'm sick of hurting my family ??, do i have a life ?? I'm alive (just barely) but i don't call this a life atm. I struggle to live, im on the poverty line, no one will employ me cause im obese. They dont want me working for them and in some cases they cant have me working for them, Think about this how can an employer, consciously employ me when there are afraid i may died on there watch add to this the likely hood of reduced productivity all adds up to employers looking else where.
Over the past few years with the help of my Local Member for State parliament I have continually fought with the QLD State Government and also the Federal Government about lap banding, the benefits of it and why it isn't offered within the public health system on a case by case bases for Morbidly obese people.
This procedure, which seems simple enough, yet isn't without its own complexities, has now seen by my Doctor as close to my last hope at effectively reducing the strain on my body and helping long term sustain weight loss, thus in toe saving my life.
There are many dark days that i feel like no-one ever seems to listen, obesity has cost me more than most would consider or understand, It has taken my Independence, employment, income, confidence, relationships it has also placed my family under great pressure, strain and stress.
I Truly feel i am a monster, i was once often described as outgoing and funny, yet these days I don't go out much now, I was once extremely active within Sports and Junior sports coaching, this i no longer can sustainably do, but the thing that it is slowly bit by bit claiming is my LIFE.
My family has history or both diabetes and heart disease, I have already had 2 extremely close calls with my heart, the last time was about 6 months ago when a developed heart related issues and some blood clots. This nearly killed me. My Local hospital through the Cardiologist contacted the State health Department about lap banding, they pleaded my case, yet there request was denied for me to have lap banding due to it not being offered publicly.
I ask where does someone turn too ?? We offer health care for Drug Addicts, We offer support for smokers to quit, We look after and treat the criminals and mentally unstable, and off course we continually hand out Billions in overseas aid, yet the largest growing killer in Australia is obesity.
Health related issues stemming from Obesity clogs our hospital systems, Obesity leads to Diabetes, Heart Disease, Liver, Kidney, Blindness and much more, Yet our governments don't seem to wont to offer or look at solutions or give the same liberties to obese Australians as they would do and do, do to the a fore above mentioned.
I do take responsibility for my mistakes and my actions. I no longer look for excuses to justify my obesity, I just need someone to help.
I just need someone willing to listen and willing to help me live. Please i ask that you don't just read my words, but actually understand them, I need help, some where, some way, some how, someone out there must be able to help me.
This is where my life started to change forever, This is where Be Transformed started and will never finish.
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