Every Day is a battle, not necessarily as the same, but still a battle. Being Morbidly Obese is challenging and Life altering. Things with in your life totally change. People Stare, Snigger and even use harsh and hurtful words.
My life has always been full of some sort of issue, but my battle with weight has been a constant medium all my life. Admittedly I have never been the size that I am now before.
This is a real battle and fight to save my life, I ask people to understand or at least listen to what i have to say.
Obesity is a real life disease, just like a Drug Addict or a Smoker, Obesity is a real life disease that roots and decays at once Soul, it erodes all levels of self-belief , Self-confidence, it places pressure on relationships, Family life and Life in general.
Just like a drug addict, obesity takes more than just what the eye can see. It places immense and insurmountable strain on all fronts.
People suffering from obesity generally become a shell, outwards at time displaying what is needed to cop and get by during the day. Behind closed door and walls, is where some of the darkest moments to come.
I can personally attest to the dark downwards spiral that be obese does engulf you with. The thoughts of death do well in truly enter ones mindset.
I have lost count of the times I have sat alone depressed, crying, feeling suffocated and alone because of my weight, Yes I have even been down the road in my mind about ending it all.
I still struggle with these demons and feelings every day of my life. I have no doubt I will beat and break this cycle.
