Moments or inspiration

I think we all get those moments where we see something, or hear something that inspires us or touches our heart. 

I have heard, seen and even watched many moments like this in the past, yet never have I actually taken the next step, to translate those things into my life; which in ever essence would provide that moment which would truly inspire me. 

I have been asked this a lot at different times in my life so far, what truly inspires me? For me it isn’t the heroics on the sporting fields, nor is a single random act of bravery or kindness, What truly inspires me is every single person who is willing to tell their story, who are willing to freely admit there mistakes and who simply aren’t afraid to ask for help when they need it most.

I ask can you see me? Can you hear me? I am here, I just wish I could be heard, often we see what we want and not what is there to be seen and all too much are words spoken yet never heard. 

I fight a daily battle; I have waged a war on myself for way too long, what some get to take for granted I can only dream of to touch within my life some point in time. 

Life can be harsh as can people and their opinions on way they see life through their own eyes.

I guess we all have some type of story that is there to be told, mine is a story that’s evolving along the way. 

We are all a fairly resilient bunch, I know I try to be a true to myself as I can; I have been knocked down my fair share of times so far in my life. I have tried to learn from my mistakes and hopefully this will and has made me a better person and human being. 

I often think about things that happen to me earlier in my life and wonder if that was only a fraction different would it have impacted on my life in a different way. This is part of the baggage and issues I need to work on if I am to both mentally and physically become healthier. 

 Are these what (if’s) a major issue? Do I need to let go of these to be able to move forward? Some will say yes while others will say to never forget your past and learn from your past mistakes. 

My journey to lose weight is about more than weight loss, to me this is about being able to overcome so much more, I am looking really deep down inside myself, I have to question everything about my past and comfort things that are both deep seeded and also shallow.