I think the hardest part of changing your life and habits is the battle you have within yourself. I know I have spoken on this before, I have talked about the battle I feel within, but the last past couple of days, I feel again I have been tested more than any other time or point so far.
What mental battle is this? It is the one that is in the back of my head saying “it’s okay, you have tried but time to do what most believe you will do”. “Go back to your old ways; you know you want to have some greasy food.
There have been a couple of times this week, where I just wanted a Pie, or a Feed of Hot Chips. But so far I have not caved into this. I’m not about to Bull Shit anyone and say this has been easy, because it hasn’t.
When you live a certain way, where your regard for health and your interest in eating healthy isn’t existent, well change is a have old slog.
I’m not coming into this needing to lose 10 or 15 Kg’s, it’s a case of I need to lose 80kgs, so changes are a must, but a big challenge when it isn’t something normal to me.
Another hurdle is self-motivating to push the extra miles need, to drag your arse out of bed on cold winters mornings and actually do something.
These are tough and challenging times that I’m currently working through. But they are changeable and will become manageable in the future.
I have this thing; I feel like the bad food I have an apple, maybe even go for a walk. Just trying to break the cycle, and retrain the brain.
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